i think i jumped the gun having this private blog. do you really want to listen to me whine?
i conquered something yesterday. i went to my first baby shower in 3 years. maybe it was bc my friend has had a hard time too. who knows. it was lovely but part of my heart broke. it is what it is.
sometimes i wonder if we should do another ivf. i don't know if i could handle a 6th anytime soon. it's not because of the appts, blood-work, surgeries...it's the feeling of hope you get and then you watch it crash -- in my case, at least.
we just paid off our credit cards. which means we paid off the failed IVFs. we did get to book two free tickets to california bc of all the points we racked up. sweet.
and today is day 1 of my cycle. i have no clue how long this past one was bc i could care less. it's too much. i did this for 3 years, people. but now, husband wants to try again. he asked me if i would temp and tinkle on the ovulation sticks. i told him -- maybe. once i start, do i keep going? you know? i got pregnant each time WITHOUT really trying. plus, i have one tube peeps. remember that story? bah.
oh and we are starting the Shred over. today. day 1 of my cycle.
someone help me. ;)
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7 comments:
That is great that you paid off your cards! One less thing to worry about. Take some time...you never have. You say you are, but never do ;) xo
Congrats on paying off the credit cards I'm sure that's a relief at least. Like you said when you aren't really "trying" it seems to happen, probably b/c you are more relaxed, may be something to that. Good luck in whatever you decide.
Honey...you can do whatever your lil heart desires...and if you don't know right now...that's okay too....just LIVE!!! And try to be HAPPY through it all....love ya.
That's interesting that your hubby is asking you to do that. Brad gets more stresed that I do and doesn't want to know anything about my cycle.
(if you know what I mean)
YEY for paying off cards, and getting a free trip out of it. And, maybe dont try. Just let it be- it seems to happen when you dont try :)
Dunno why you haven't been showing up in my reader lately but I wanted to tell you I'm thinking about you.
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Oh my gosh! My reader hasn't been updating me when you post and I thought it had been weeks! I love this blog. I love your openness and your vulnerability, and you all around. =) Life is hard, and there's no need to pretend or hold it all in. We are your friends, we care, and we are SO here for you in all of this.
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