yeah, i feel ill for allowing all of this to be read.
sorry. just being honest.
i also feel ill about the adoption process.
do you realize it will cost us 10-30K for advertising?
back in the day, you put an ad in the penny saver and bam -- you become a parent.
i am sick that we (loving peeps that want a child) have to go through so many gd hoops!
i am so frustrated with life right now. too much on my plate that i find it hard to do my exercise tape at night and not gorge on cupcakes. is that even correct grammar? i cannot spend money on silly things that might make me feel better bc we are always in save mode.
i don't even want to place these ads. i don't want to try for a baby on our own. i am just beat.
i need a break. okay? i do. now i am in tears and feel anxious.
boo hoo, right?
i am about to go outside and take a deep breath.
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6 comments:
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Life is too much. I struggle HUGELY with anxiety and that feeling of being overwhelmed. Take it one step at a time and know that I am thinking of you!!! xo
I would imagine a good deep breath is what you need. And a break is okay too...you DO have a lot on your plate...and it is okay to pull up the white flag. All understandable. I hope all of this truly helps you continue healing. Stay strong.
I wish I had a blog like this to vent. So awesome. There are more peeps out there feelig the same thing. We too...want a baby. I'm about to start Clomid and acupuncture. I'm almost 36 and feeling like a loser.
Just reading this post I feel overwhelmed so you most definitely have the right to feel overwhelmed.
If it helps, I've been passing on your adoption information to people I know in case they know someone who could use the information. It's a small shot but it's free. :-)
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I didnt know that you had to pay to advertise to adopt!?! Have you thought about doing foster to adopt? I konw that you wouldnt have to advertise.
The costs associated with adoption make me irate really! People already have to bear their whole intimate lives to be "approved" while irresponsible people get pregnant daily & abuse their kids! You have every right to feel this way & I have your back if anyone gives you grief about it :)
One day at a time! Things will turn around they will!!
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