Wednesday, March 30, 2011

here it is . . .

. . . the "i want to scream the F word as loudly as i can" post.


my adorable niece is once again in trouble with the law. 


d.r.u.g.s.
po.lice.
mo.tel.
cou.rt.


i don't know the whole story but my grandmother had to tell me, okay? i am speechless.
i feel so naive thinking that i helped her realize how bad her choices were. i return to NYC to learn she never once listened to what i had to say.


and then i opened up reader and guess what? all baby announcements.


and honestly, it f'ing hurts so bad. i try each and every day to stay positive and focus on what we have and it's times like these that i just cannot understand anything. times like these when i want to give up. 

12 comments:

Dee Stephens said...

Wow Summer. I know how you feel...as my hubby would say.
'Another kick to the jimmy'.
I hope your niece can figure it out because that's no way to live life.
We are all here for you.
xoxo,
Dee

Shannon said...

It's so hard to watch family and friends go down the wrong path but unfortunately there is only so much you can do to try to stop them. They need to make mistakes and learn from them. Hopefully she'll learn sooner rather than later that her actions have serious consequences. I'm sorry you have to go through something upsetting yet again.

Deni said...

I'm so sorry about your niece, it's so hard when you feel like you've reached a youth and it just didn't sink in!

I am so sorry you keep hearing announcements, I know it hurts! My SIL just announced too and seriously I'm mad about it and can't seem to make myself happy about it! I feel like a bad person!

Sending you lots of love!! You may scream the F word as loud as you like as many times as you like, I understand!!!

carrie1 said...

=( sending hugs your way! xoxo

Summer said...

you know, i'm not a cussin' girl....but this week as Chloe has been possessed....the f word has been making a daily appearance. And while Jesus may not be too happy with me over it, it actually felt relieving in the moment.

so sorry today is rough....but don't give up. take a pity day today, and pick yourself back up tomorrow!

melifaif said...

Oh, honey. I am sorry! Your niece is young, she is gonna make mistakes. We can only TRY to help. And you did...please don't throw in the towel.

TheresaSea said...

Yikes, what a terrible day. I think it's the full moon, because I had a day filled with angry parents yelling at me, weird stuff at work, and well, PMS'ing. BARF.

Try to relax, and keep thinking positive! ♥

{andthisiswhatshesaid} said...

So sorry about your niece :( so hard when someone wont listen to us. keep your chin up my love.

Unknown said...

I can only imagine :(
I am sorry that your niece is having to learn her $hit the hard way. I don't get it - because if they just LISTENED to even one piece of advice from us they would be a-okay. ugh. I am thinking of her. And you.
i can't imagine hearing all the baby announcements and going through what you are... I can't. I can only send you my love, my empathy and super big hugs from way over here in Canada!!
xoxoxo

ffprncez said...

*hugs* sadly all you can do is try with your niece. i am not sure if this is the first time she has been in trouble or not, but she may need to hit rock bottom before anything resonates. As far as the other... it's a real shame that people who deserve to be parents almost never are and the ones who doesn't deserve it are. It's an unfair and unjust world. Keep the faith. it will happen for you!

Drew said...

:-( It's hard to see someone you love make bad decisions in their life. Really hard. I'm going through this myself and I'm constantly wondering how they can do it...

We're all here for you Sum, anytime you nee, any reason.

XO

Jesica said...

Sorry about your niece =( And I hear you on the babies, what's with all the baby announcements?! I've gotten 4 in the last 2 weeks, everyone is 3-4 months along suddenly. Not enjoying it one bit!

 

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