You have to imagine their reaction. Hear their voice in your mind. You can sit there and tell yourself they knew before you did and that they are proud but it's not the same.
Like someone said, "I'm now in the dead dads club". Maybe that is too blunt for some but it's my reality and it's no fun.
Each day, it gets a little easier to manage the pain, but the worst is when I need to hear his voice, ask his advice, or share things with him.
All I can do is trust that he is with me and it's not something I'm making up to make my heart heal faster.
And honestly, my Daddy would want me to smile instead of frown and probably would want me to do what Ms. Brit Brit says and "dance til the world ends".
See The Sunlight
We Ain't Stoppin’
Keep On Dancing Till The World Ends
We Ain't Stoppin’
Keep On Dancing Till The World Ends
8 comments:
i am so right there with you. i would love to hear my dad's voice again or feel his arms wrapped around me. I always have these convos with him in my head. some days are easier then others. some days i forget. then when i remember i feel the shock all over again. my dad would not want me to cry either - he would want me to enjoy my life. *hugs*
LOVE that song!! and just cuz your daddy can't answer doesn't mean isn't listening =)
That's a problem I still have too. I'd call my grandma and just chitchat for a little while, and she was always so supportive and it was nice to just know that someone was proud of me, no matter what I did, and that I couldn't ever fail in her eyes. :\ Need it on nights like this! Hugs hugs hugs
I'm so sorry for your pain lady! I hope your good news helps make it a bit better. Hugs!
he can hear you. dont stop talking to him. he will find a way to let you know he heard every word.
You describe it perfectly. The dead dads club. Everytime something good happens in my life, there's still a little twinge of sadness, when I remember he's not here to be proud of me... or to give me a big hug & say I love you.
*hugs* XoXo
I can't begin to understand what you are going through. Just know that I am hear. I cannot even come close to replacing that voice, that advice....but I will try. I heart you. I hope you have a lovely weekend.
I got sad reading this but so loved the conversation we had about your dad. Late late late at night and on the aerobed. :) It's true what Kristen said--he of course hears you. It's just hard to trust when you can't hear him talking back. I love you lots!
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